The Perfect Embodiment

I spent the whole morning fixing my laptop. It had so many spyware/adware/malware that I was shocked. I have no idea how all of that junk got into my PC, maybe the guy who fixed it downloaded crap. But I fixed it and it's working fine. I also cleaned up dad's laptop and updated his drivers, so it's working a lot better too.

We had two cats hanging out in our backyard today. It seemed to be a mother cat with her baby kitten. They were laying about in some of dad's PVC pipes, chilling in the shade. I put a bowl of cold water and fed them some tuna. I think they were very happy. Hopefully they'll come by tomorrow again. I'll get some cat food and put it away for them when they decide to visit. I wish I could keep them, but I have too many pets to care for at the moment. Plus, dad would kill me.

I worked out for 40 minutes tonight while watching Ghost Adventures on Hulu Plus. I don't understand why people hate Hulu. I like it. The commercials are very short compared to what you see on television, so there's no need to complain. I like it a lot more than Netflix. It has more stuff on it plus a ton of anime.

I'm quite tired tonight so I'll go to bed early. I really want to finish watching The First 48 but I am falling asleep. I completely forgot what I was going to do now...I have such a horrible short-term memory!

Today was my graduation from UMET but I didn't go. It was at 8 am in San Juan. We had to be there at around 7:30 am which would be impossible...So instead dad took me to Sizzler's for dinner. We had the buffet plus ordered a side dish of shrimps. They were pretty good. I wish they had a wider variety in the buffet though. They always have the same menu, which gets boring. But we had a good time and we couldn't even breathe or move afterwards. I didn't really eat much to be honest. However, I had 2 large glasses of iced tea which is fine, I've been drinking plenty of water, no juice and definitely no soda. After I got home, I waited 2 hours and did 40 minutes of exercise. Feeling great.

Yesterday I got to hang out with Allison. We went to the movies to watch Insidious Chapter 3. It was a cool movie with plenty of jump scares and disturbing images. I never watched Insidious Chapter 2, so I have to see that one soon. I really want to go see Jurassic World. I hope it's a good one. Also can't wait to see Sinister 2. Now that movie is amazing.

Today I woke up feeling like hell because last night I was so hyper and couldn't sleep. I think I feel asleep at around 4 am and only because I forced myself. I got up at 12 pm and ate some tortillas with cheese, then had an applesauce for a snack. For lunch I had some cereal. I did 30 minutes of exercise on the treadmill. I wanted to do more but I was very exhausted and decided not to push myself. However, I did exercise for 50 minutes yesterday so it's fine to me. Hopefully tonight I could get better rest and do 40-50 minutes exercise tomorrow.

I have been feeling better than ever. I am happier, positive, stronger. I am not stressed out or constantly negative anymore. Being with that person did me more harm than good. I am glad that I decided to move on and work on focusing on myself. I have opened my eyes and my heart. I have learned to accept myself and my past events. I feel at peace with myself. I no longer need to put up with negativity. I will keep thinking only positive thoughts no matter how difficult the situation may be. I will not let myself fall once again. My mistake was depending on the wrong person in order to find happiness. I just ended up losing myself to someone who walked all over me. Nobody should ever make others feel bad just to make themselves feel superior and good about them.

I now smile more often. I laugh more. I no longer cry myself to sleep. I no longer feel that I have to change to please others. I am slowly picking up the pieces and putting my life together again. I have finished my Bachelor's degree in nursing with cum laud. Soon I will take the nursing state test (dunno how it's called?) and eventually find a job. I cannot wait to move on and find a better future.

I now find things to focus on to distract my mind. I have been watching anime (something I never did before), crocheting, reading more often, exercising, cooking, etc. So far it has been working fine. I love who I have become. Thank you mom for giving me strength.