nemesais | Untitled (Reply)

I wish I could write a letter and just get it over with. I wish I weren't such a coward. I have so much pain inside, my heart can't take it anymore. All I want is to sleep forever. I want to just leave. Maybe then I won't be a burden to anyone. I'm tired. Emotionally drained. I'm physically and mentally exhausted already.

I wish there was a way to just shut down this feeling. If there is, I'm having a hard time doing that. And if I do achieve it, it's not for too long. It always creeps back into my mind. One day I'm fine and feeling great and then the next day I'm dying a little more inside. Those feelings of being unloved, unwanted, worthless, useless...

Maybe I should just give up and rid of myself. I just can't take it anymore...it's just too much pain for one individual.